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    Monday, January 16, 2006
    Leave Me Alone

    I still felt a tinge of sadness.

    Elyn was born with such intelligence that it almost ruins her life. 5 years old's Elyn knows every little thing that is happening in her family.

    If you think she had a happy childhood, then she tells you now. She doesn't. She looks damn innocent in front of her parents, but she's not. She sees how people break promises, doing things that he shouldn't do. They are damn contradicting. She feels hurt for the other party and also feels sad because the He is her love ones. Why is she always there to face such things? Why can't she have a wonderful childhood? She's only 5 years old and she has to carry such thing through her entire life. Parents say to her, "you are only 5 years old; there are still a lot of things you don't know." Are you sure? She doesn't think so.

    Tears blurred my eyes every night.

    Elyn is exceptional. She went through a hell time. She keep quiet, that doesn't mean she don't know anything. You are wrong. Amazingly, Elyn is the only one in the family who knows about everything.
    You bring her into this world and let her suffer this kind of shit. Might as well shoot a bullet through her and let her disappear.

    Promise and trust turn into pure ash.

    Elyn is 19 years old now; still she got to bear all these shit. It's unbearable; still, she got to shut up in order to avoid more troubles. Elyn fall and stand up umpteen times till she get so tired. She can have loads of freedom but she choose not to, because she want peace at home. Sometime she wishes that a car would run over her or she don't wake up from her sleep.

    If only they could stand in my position and spare a thought for me.

    Everything seems to be slipping away from her. What she wants is not chocolate or branded stuff.
    Studying became meaningless for her. Beside attachment and studies. What more can she do? She can't think of any other alternatives.

    God. Please take my life away.

    posted by elyn @8:32 PM
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