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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
.whew.im back.haha.been waking up at 5am fer work.so far so gd.the worst has yet to come. .tired.tired.tired.all i can sae is tired.slept at 6.30pm all e wae to dis morning 5am.legs n toes breaking.nails dropping out.nt an ez job.been walking fer e whole 8hrs.saw lots of different patient.nasty.fussy.good.all haf lar.try moi bez to gif dem wad dey wann.=) .change diapers fer dem.change dressing.i cant stand it.bt still.haf to tolerate.their wounds can cause one to puke.bt.....strong elyn.haha.i survive thru!haha.hlp dem to bath.feed dem.tk their para.etc.still ok la.patient slp thru e whole dae.if nt.dey r confused patient.den dat will b kinda difficult. .moi 1st dae of work.alrdy kana scratch by patient.cus she in pain.o mine.running ard to gif dem wad dey wann.u noee.a male patient.he kept pressing e call bell n ask us to draw e curtain.if nt.open.make everione so fed up.haha. .lots of stori.bt too tired to type le.=) .o yar.tell ur sumting.moi memories maker tell mi dat he is cuming back.muahaha.i can c moi memories maker le.haha.=) .so happi.mus celebrate le.haha. .orite.stop fer nw.gonna watch moi tv. posted by elyn @6:30 PM Friday, August 26, 2005
.exam over.
Happieeeeee.exam over...muahaha.last paper todae.last paper nitemare.i was late fer exam.rush lyk crazi.aft dat.stomache.o mine.lucky i alrdy finish paper.mr tay hu is superb funnie n lame.he said out so loud till pple ard mi all noe i stomache.den he luff at mi.goodie lect.lyk him. .wen i came out frm e cubical.e other lect hu is outside waiting fer mi cant find mi wen im jus beside her.telling another lect.sae i haven cum out.haha.so funnie.blur lyk sotong.she tot i copy.haha.she gave mi a hug.o mine.i duno hu she is.din c dis lect b4.aniwae.nvm. .hmm.finally i survive thru dis exam wk.hope no supp paper.next.is moi attachment.next wk will b a tough wk fer mi ler.*sigh*. .as i look back.o mine.i shldnt haf start ani relationship mann.feel lyk i kinda wasted part of moi sec life.abit regret.mayb all of us shld jus b frens during dat sec sch time.hmm...suan le ba. .at least nw i noe.tings will appear clearer to us oni wen we r settle dwn. .wen i look back.i realised someone did play a part in moi life n yet.i missed.gd tings do cum by.bt if u missed it.u wun gt it animore.... posted by elyn @7:49 PM Friday, August 19, 2005
.exam wk.
.todae is e 1st dae of moi exam.well.all i can feel is stress.work pile up everidae.gotten everitng rdy.watch.scissor.name tag.uniform.NB. except shoes.gotta buy by next sat.cuz time table fer attachment is out.attachment imme after exam.29aug.phew.sat n sun is off dae.haf 2 time slot.woking time frm 7am-3pm n e other wan is 1pm-9pm.i noe it will b tiring.bt.i gota to pull thru.i noe i will. =) .next few wks.i wun b able to log in fer msn.blogger.etc. so frequently ler.will bcum a bz ger.exam was okay.if i put in more effort.i tink i will pass.howeva.moi bio n socio.din score well.hmm.mayb needa to tk supp paper.hope to gt to sem2. .Junyang is out.kinda sian.y is he out?.almoz burst into tears. .mumie gt mi a new spect.soo happi.finally i haf another choice.either to wear spect or CL.moi eyes is sooooo dry.after lens is taken out.moi eyes will bcum watery n red.v uncomfortable.i dun lyk e feeling. =/ trying hard to lose wt.i tink i gain wt ler.face filled w fats.i dun lyk.after sun tanning.face colour was lyk...terrible...gona c doc.problems problems n more problems. .as i tink abt moi attachment.i begin to feel sian again.im gona gt scolded again n again by e staff nurse.ms gwen sae our skin mus b alot thicker during attachment.mus b humble.let e staff nurse c u as someone hu is willing to learn....will i b lidat?.i tink i will faint over n over again.ms gwen will b there too.argh!y mus b her.last min gwen cum TTSH.o mine.dats worst den failing assessment.having her ard in hospital.i tink moi life will b damn miserable.watching wad i do.i cant stand it mann.ms gwen.nice.blur.bt wen cum to clinical n assessment.she is superb fierce.thunder n lighting all cum. =( .YA.I NOE!NBM.cannt gif dem fd. .if i gif.i will fail imme. =) .so pple.wish mi gd luck.make sure i pass moi clinical n meet nice staff nurse there. =) posted by elyn @11:29 PM Tuesday, August 09, 2005
.heartbreaking.
.tears came rolling dwn my cheek.amg so mani problems.im oni shedding tears fer u two wen i shouldn't haf. .wad r u trying to do?.pple lyk u shouldn't survive in dis world.is a disaster to haf u ard.if u cant accept e fact dat u r so worst.den gt lost.y read moi blog n make a big fuss over dis. .pple hu c thru e whole problems.dey will noe hu's rite n wrong.fer those hu listen to one side of e stori n start to judge.ur r even worst.ur r nt in e position to sae aniting.jus shut up.i dun nd ur comment.i dun need aniting frm dese kind of pple. .todae.tings land will up to dis state.hu to blame?. .trying to gain sympathy frm others.u din do it e last time.bt nw.i tink u shld noe better.u tink u haf succeed?.no.u did nt.neither did i.u make a big mess.n den?.u jus left it there.tell mi hu r waiting fer to clear ?. .jus a call.a call.u tink wad?.everiting is solved urh?.u nv gif mi ani chance to sae aniting.u dun even noe e truth n u jump into conclusion?y?y u handle tings lidat?i tot u shld handle betta den i do?.dis is moi blog.MOI BLOG!.i haf e right to voice out wadeva i wan in here.i din sae dat im nt at fault.bt u?.u r nt at fault???. .if a person is suffering frm duno wad problem.dat doesn't mean dat she is nt at fault.she plays a part too.n in e 1st place.nobodi noe dat she is suffering frm dis problem.so dun assume.telling u e truth.u choose nt to accept it.den wad u wana mi to do?.dun ask my fren to cum n ask mi wad u told mi.wad u tell mi is wad u tell mi.n wad u wana tell my fren.i duno.dats different stori.dun mixed e both of us tgt.we haf diiferent tings to tell u.did u make an effort to hear us out?.no.u didn't. .u tell mi u feel hurt.den wad abt mi?.u jus blast mi thru e phone w/o finding e truth.how would i feel?.u sae im reasonable.den u?.r u reasonable?.ask mi to let her off wen she is e wan hu almoz killed mi wif all e tings she done.n did she tink before she do those tings to mi?can u stand n moi position n tink fer mi?.y r u so selfish?. .dun sae sorrie to mi wen u r e wan hu make mi cry.i wun accept it.i wun.u shld noe y i cry.u push mi beyond e limit of wad i can tk n wad u sae.i dun accept ani apologies frm u two.no.wad r ur trying to do?.drive mi crazi?.let mi land in e state of depression?.u ask mi if i will feel gd.feel happi after i wrote all those nasty tings abt her.den i ask u.before she do aniting to mi.did she stand in moi position n tink.how would i feel?.if i realli suffer depression cus of ur.will ur b happi?will ur feel betta?. .STAND IN MOI POSITION AND TINK.stop asking mi to tink fer her. .will u still b bothered abt pple hu hurt u before?.No. .bt will u still b bothered abt pple hu once hurt u.n nw.hurt u more den wad u hurt dem?.Yes. .i dun gain aniting wen i sae abt u.bt dats wad i wanted to write out before i explode.my conscience is clear.wad abt u?.wad did u gain wen u did all those tings to mi?.a lie to cover up another?. .DID U SEE A SINGLE TEAR WHEN U DID ALL THOSE TINGS TO MI?!. .there u r crying all e wae.wad r u doing?dun tink dat by crying u will nt b needed to carry e responsibilities.n jus let others settle fer u.clear up e mess u made.if u c'tinue.u will b a loser.u will nv learn to b independent.no matter how mani problems u face.u still wun b strong.bt growing weaker each time. .feeling sad fer u more den myself. .its time to kp a distance before anione commit suicide or anione report police. .we r no longer frens.no longer.we wun b frens animore.so dun wait fer dat dae to cum.it wun cum...... .Strangers now and ferever. posted by elyn @9:03 AM Monday, August 08, 2005
.Silence Tears.
.I QUIT.orite.i quit.dun sae sorri.i dun wana hear ani.nt ani.dun explain.cuz u make mi lost hope in u.lost.lost.lost.i lost trust.gain hurt.gain sadness.hu can i turn to?.HU?.pls tell mi. .You delete mi frm frenster.delete mi frm msn.u tink i will b happier?!.I WUN.orite.NO!. .Why nt ur jus let mi disappear frm dis world?. .dun let mi tk everiting orite.wad can i do bside blogging?.u c'tinue ur life.mi?.out of e sudden i haf to tk all e blasting.all of e fears.i feel so threaten.THREATEN!!!!.i mean it.wen fights occured.it consists of two party.n nt one.y cant u hear mi out?WHY?!. .No one sae dat u r a burden.NO ONE!.bcuz of nt voicing out.misunderstanding will occured.shld i sae dat.nw i haf to tk all e responsibility.everiting urh?. .Colours to ur life.den WHERE IS MINE?.WHERE?.Suddenly moi world bcum black. .wen there is misunderstanding.no one is willing to voice out aniting.so there is no one to blame. .dun beg mi orite.DUN BEG MI.i shld b e one to beg u.let mi go.let mi go.im having sleepless nite.e call was so sudden.u din let mi voice out.u din.bside moi blog.i noe nth.I NOE NTH!. .YOUR ARE DRIVING MI NUTS!. posted by elyn @12:33 PM Saturday, August 06, 2005
.everiting's delete.bt nt in moi memory. .blog.e oni place dat i can vent moi anger on.so wads wrong?!.i haf moi freedom to voice out wadeva i wana.if i dun pen dwn.den wad shld i do? .bad-mouth.gossip.everi gers do.hu dun.?. .pple.if u tink my english sux.den dun read moi blog.if u tink i dun pen dwn a gd blog.den dun read...y gt angry n sad over wad i sae? .dun look upon mi.cuz i'll disappoint you more. .i din grab hold of her so dun ask mi to let her off. n oso i duno noe wad happen to her so dun expect mi to understand. posted by elyn @3:38 PM Friday, August 05, 2005
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